beautiful disaster

You know February just flew by? Like, wasn't it January just a few weeks ago? And then this weekend will be the last February weekend, won't it? And...wow.

I don't really want time to pass. I think it would be really nice if time just stopped for a while and I could just sort of rest. Had an internal affairs meeting today and the sec 2s (I keep calling them sec 1s...they're so small) were going on about how the March holidays are in, what, 20 days' time, and they were looking forward to it soooo much...I don't really want March holidays to come.

Today was a horrible day, and chem lab was like the cherry on a fever-medicine-flavoured sundae (i hate cherries, by the way). Totally forgot how to titrate, and in my sleepy stupor I titrated sodium hydroxide with sodium hydroxide so the stupid screened methyl orange didn't turn grey-green at all and I wasted about 7 minutes titrating, looking at the green solution like an idiot. I guess it was sort of funny, just like the time when I accidentally pipetted the acid instead of the alkali and the phenolphthalein turned pink instead. But at that time it wasn't really funny.

One thing I am grateful for is the fact that today is the only day of the week I get home before 5. Another person I'm grateful for is Zhen, who so patiently listens to all my complaints (even if she doesn't understand half of what i'm saying due to the lack of sleep). It's so funny, you know. Yesterday was so nice and happy and I thought there was nothing in the world that could get me down and then today--ugh. Didn't even want to get out of bed.

It's going to rain, I think. That's a good sign. I like rain :). I think I just need a good sleep to clear my head. There really isn't anything to worry about, anyway. I mean, it's not really my problem, all these things. Right?

Oh, my gosh. And tomorrow's Wednesday. I hate Wednesdays. Let's just all drown Jac in a bucket of sorrow right now so she won't have to face Wednesdays ever again. Ahhhh!

jac was here with you 2/17/2004 06:06:00 pm

My Destiny
Psalm 46 (NASB)
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change
And though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea;
Though its waters roar and foam,
Though the mountains quake at its swelling pride.

There is river whose streams make glad the city of God,
The holy dwelling places of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved;
God will help her when morning dawns.
The nations made an uproar, the kingdoms tottered;
He raised His voice, the earth melted.
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.

Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who has wrought desolations in the earth.
He makes wars to cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariots with fire.
"Cease striving and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.