beautiful disaster

This song has been echoing in my head the whole weekend, ever since I heard Justin sing it on Friday. It was so vaguely familiar; I must have heard it before, but I couldn't remember, and it was just the chorus that I remembered. We sang it today during prayer meeting and there are just a few lines, but they mean so much to me. I'm not even sure if the words are correct but it's the words of the second verse that have a special meaning to me:

The sweetest of all love songs I long to bring to You So I'll let my words be few. Jesus, I am so in love with You.
And it goes on, and the rest of the song, while so simple and short, is just lingering in my mind as I sing it over and over again. The whole weekend was just full of praise. First cell, then Fusion, then today's worship, and despite some problems I just have to thank God for blessing me with so much. Words can't express how grateful I feel towards Him. Just praising Him over and over again because He's in control of everything! No matter how messed up everything seems, He holds everything in the palm of His hand. Wow!

And, and...I want to give Him the sweetest of all love songs by making my whole life pleasing to Him. So hard and yet so simple. Like Gilly says, surrendering is hard but necessary. Trusting Him, listening to Him, all these things take so much time and effort but I know that the rewards make up for it all. I'm scared He'll break me. But...

Jesus, I am so in love with You.

jac was here with you 2/01/2004 09:08:00 pm

My Destiny
Psalm 46 (NASB)
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change
And though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea;
Though its waters roar and foam,
Though the mountains quake at its swelling pride.

There is river whose streams make glad the city of God,
The holy dwelling places of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved;
God will help her when morning dawns.
The nations made an uproar, the kingdoms tottered;
He raised His voice, the earth melted.
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.

Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who has wrought desolations in the earth.
He makes wars to cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariots with fire.
"Cease striving and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.