beautiful disaster

I was wrong. The computer guy came, checked the computer and left with it. No more Internet for at least another week.

Was playing Path on my mum's Ericsson while waiting at TTSH yesterday and thought about it and how it relates to life. Path is a game with a grid. There are a few pairs of numbers scattered around the grid, and you're supposed to find a way to join each pair together without crossing the paths of the other pairs.

When you get to the advanced level of Path, sometimes it's really hard to solve the puzzle and oftentimes you have to try a few times, experimenting with the different paths and such. But one thing I've learnt is that you have to try.

And maybe...I don't know...that's what I should do. Just try. But it's so scary; what if I'm doing wrong in God's eyes? Somehow I feel so distant from God...I don't feel His prompting at all. He would tell me if something were wrong but right now I'm really unsure.

So hard; so weird; so scary.

jac was here with you 1/13/2004 10:59:00 am

My Destiny
Psalm 46 (NASB)
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change
And though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea;
Though its waters roar and foam,
Though the mountains quake at its swelling pride.

There is river whose streams make glad the city of God,
The holy dwelling places of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved;
God will help her when morning dawns.
The nations made an uproar, the kingdoms tottered;
He raised His voice, the earth melted.
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.

Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who has wrought desolations in the earth.
He makes wars to cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariots with fire.
"Cease striving and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.