beautiful disaster

I bought my shoes! They are nice but as my mum paid for it I kept wondering, "should i have gotten the wedge-heel ones instead? Because I won't trip in those. Or should I have gotten the brown ones? The details are more obvious. And what happens if they don't match with anything I have? Or if they're too formal? What if I just stash them in the cupboard until next year because I never find a right time to wear them and then by that time I'd have grown out of them? Are they the right size? Should I have gotten the bigger ones, because they fit me perfectly now, but what if my feet grow?"

And on and on...

But I bought them anyway, and they look pretty when I wear them and I feel like a cat, tiptoe-ing around. They're jet black, and very simple, and although you can't see the patterns embossed on the sole of the shoe unless you look very carefully, I like them. Now I have to grow my nails nicely because they are horrendous. I mean, my nails, all bruised and broken (as Dan so fascinatedly points out), are fine in my old red velvet slippers from Alicia, but they are just not fit to wear this pair of heels.

It's my grandmother's present to me. She approves of them :) Thank you, Mama!

jac was here with you 12/11/2003 05:10:00 pm

My Destiny
Psalm 46 (NASB)
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change
And though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea;
Though its waters roar and foam,
Though the mountains quake at its swelling pride.

There is river whose streams make glad the city of God,
The holy dwelling places of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved;
God will help her when morning dawns.
The nations made an uproar, the kingdoms tottered;
He raised His voice, the earth melted.
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.

Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who has wrought desolations in the earth.
He makes wars to cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariots with fire.
"Cease striving and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.