beautiful disaster

I will sing of Your mercy that leads me through valleys of sorrow to rivers of joy.

And that's really all that is. Worshipping and thanking God for every day and everything it brings. Which is hard, but reaps so many rewards.

School's starting. Today I got paranoid about O's after talking to Zhen. The stupid girl is so smart. :P So I'm planning my study schedule to calm myself down. Note: not because I am a goody-goody or a studying freak (I hate studying, for the record), but because if I don't I will drive myself mad.

I got home at 11 last night and Mum was really, really angry. I guess I could understand why. I do understand why. Because I'd been out since, what, 9 am, and I didn't answer her calls or anything even though she'd given me her spare handphone (p.s., everyone, please don't message there often because it's not mine. Sometimes my mum takes it!). So she got worried, and it was 11 by the time everything ended, and to cut an already long story short, my curfew now is 10 pm because my mum doesn't like not knowing where I am and how I'm getting back.

And so I don't know if I get to go to the Prayer and Planning retreat this weekend. I don't know if I even should because lately I have been pushing the limits concerning my parents. Somehow I don't feel as if I deserve to ask to go.

Will pray.

jac was here with you 12/31/2003 06:51:00 pm

My Destiny
Psalm 46 (NASB)
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change
And though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea;
Though its waters roar and foam,
Though the mountains quake at its swelling pride.

There is river whose streams make glad the city of God,
The holy dwelling places of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved;
God will help her when morning dawns.
The nations made an uproar, the kingdoms tottered;
He raised His voice, the earth melted.
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.

Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who has wrought desolations in the earth.
He makes wars to cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariots with fire.
"Cease striving and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.