YFaithfulness
I guess it shouldn't be surprising that people are lonely but the fact is that they are. We're all really good pretenders, aren't we? Hands up those who go about with their day laughing and talking with friends they've been around since forever but once the laughter fades and you return home there's nothing really that's there for you, that you can feel you can rely on.
Not even the One who's supposed to always be there, because you can't help but wonder, underneath all the promises of faithfulness and love, when He ever did show His faithfulness to you. Not other people, you know, people who have passed on and you only read about, but you.
I mean...I don't know. (I really should stop using that phrase; it's like this huge anticlimax when I say it out loud.) I was reading through my old journals that I've had since I was sec 2 and I realised how much I've changed from being this superficial bimbo who cared about clothes and boys and popularity to...well, I'm still a bimbo sometimes (pink feather boa!) but I guess I'm less superficial (Eman says I say very thought-provoking things, so okay)...to an extent.
But apart from that, what have I got to say about God's faithfulness to me? I mean, what on earth is being faithful defined as? I could say that He's been faithful to me because He's brought me to this point of time in my life but that's being rather vague, isn't it? I guess it's a human thing to prefer huge, spectacular displays but you know Michelle always talks about personal testimonies? Well, what have I got to talk about? Normal things. Like exams and stuff. It's not exactly the sort of thing you see God's hand in. Not like an obvious thing--I DON'T KNOW!
Hm. I think...I shall stop thinking about this for a while. Trust. Two random things: 1. Chang, when I get my O'Level results back, I will remember your deal with me! Hahahaha :) 2. I think I'm dyslexic. I keep reading 'unite' as 'untie'. IT'S ALL YUE-YI'S FAULT!
jac was here with you
9/07/2004 01:35:00 pm
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