beautiful disaster

Guess what, I'm bored and I'm not doing work.

I have Bio and Physics pracs this week...ooh, scary.

Okay, not really. I'm not really scared yet. Not until I get nightmares about how I'm going to get my results back and God's going to pull a trick on me and send me to poly. (Note to self: poly is not that bad. Repeat a hundred times.) No, not even that bad. I'm scared I won't get the results I want and I want to work hard so I can guarantee I'll get what I want except that sometimes revising and revising and revising really bores you.

I mean, gosh, get it over and done with already! Can't wait till the 17th of August. And after that my next milestone will be the 23rd, Longest Day, after which I will get to sleep in forever and ever and never have to wake up at 6:30 ever again! And after that would be the 2nd of October, or whenever my practicals start, and then after that it'll be the 19th, after which I will be freeeeeeeeee!

At least until January. Or March, depending on which JC I go to. ('Cos some JCs start classes before March, apparently.)

You know what's scary? I really hope that it won't be like this for the next 2 years. I cannot stand the thought of have to study every single day of my life until I graduate. And I really don't think God wants me to be miserable for the rest of my life, either. So I have three choices: adjust my attitude towards studying, or adjust my studying habits. Or both. I don't know! If I have to do this much work to get good grades in JC I don't think I can keep it up.

(P.S. Eman just alerted me to a site about JCs: http://www.jcguide.org. Quite funny. Not to be taken seriously ;))

Oh, yes, and I decided not to be bitter. I have had feedback that I'm really good at that whole sarcastic thing, which is not exactly a thing to be proud of, because it makes me seem bitter. So I will not be bitter. Especially about studying. Studying is good. Grades are your friend.

Until my next break time...

jac was here with you 8/22/2004 09:21:00 pm

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My Destiny
Psalm 46 (NASB)
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change
And though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea;
Though its waters roar and foam,
Though the mountains quake at its swelling pride.

There is river whose streams make glad the city of God,
The holy dwelling places of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved;
God will help her when morning dawns.
The nations made an uproar, the kingdoms tottered;
He raised His voice, the earth melted.
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.

Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who has wrought desolations in the earth.
He makes wars to cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariots with fire.
"Cease striving and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.