beautiful disaster

Dance Night was good. I think we sold out :)

Got flowers even though I didn't dance, which was a nice gesture from my friends. "For someone who didn't dance, you sure got a lot of flowers," Ben told me.

I got a bouquet from Mrs. Ang. It was very unexpected.

Lost my voice. It's been reduced to a whisper and my mum has grounded me. So no track meet, no humanities quiz, no worship practice, no talking on the phone, no jamming session tomorrow...my weekend has been RUINED. My weekend has been reduced to mugging to make up for all the time I didn't mug over the week.

Jac is on a melancholy track. Stay away, everyone :)

Okay, but about Dance Night. It was good. Really, really good. The MG dancers rule. Yeah, we do :) No other CCA can sell out 1000 seats. Last night, just before Sam's dance, I went backstage and stood with Kim and Alicia in the wings. We looked out at the crowd and at the dancers on stage and as we did I just felt a whole flurry of emotions pass through me.

Bittersweet. The three of us joined dance together and through these 3 1/4 years we've grown--apart, different, better in some ways. We aren't the friends we were in sec 1--but, then again, I guess we aren't the people we were in sec 1. It's a sort of reversal of roles, I suppose. I know I'm not what I wanted to be in sec 1.

"You always seem so driven, like you know what you want," Mrs. Ang had told me.

But then, do I know what I really want? What will really make me happy?

jac was here with you 4/17/2004 07:44:00 pm

My Destiny
Psalm 46 (NASB)
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change
And though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea;
Though its waters roar and foam,
Though the mountains quake at its swelling pride.

There is river whose streams make glad the city of God,
The holy dwelling places of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved;
God will help her when morning dawns.
The nations made an uproar, the kingdoms tottered;
He raised His voice, the earth melted.
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.

Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who has wrought desolations in the earth.
He makes wars to cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariots with fire.
"Cease striving and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.