beautiful disaster

I am sick. Actually, I am on the threshold of actually becoming sick, but my mum pulled out all stops, anyway. Made me stay at home (so now I'll have to wait to get better before I can go over to Mum's friend's nail shop to work) which, I supposed, buys me extra time to study. Gosh. And so today I will:

1. Read a Chinese book. My Chinese is atrocious. Horrendous. I can't even speak a coherent, grammatical sentence in Chinese. I realised I don't know how to say, "Go to the back." It sounds weird when I say it. Hee ^^ I am such a banana.

2. Go through chem, physics, bio and English exam papers. I want to know why I only got an a2 for Physics and how, with the amount of red crosses I saw on my chem paper and the fact that half the time during the Bio exam I didn't know what the heck I was talking about, I got an a1 and a b3 for chem and bio respectively.

3. Get to sleep by 10. Last night I spent a few hours talking to Deanne and Gilly over the phone, which caused both my parents to get irritated and angry with me. Normally my dad hates it because he wants me to get to sleep early but my mum was angry, too, which is a cause for concern. So I got off reluctantly, but by the time I went to sleep it was around midnight.

I just finished reading my last library book this morning. It's called The Song of Names, by Norman Lebrecht. It's about a Jewish violinist who disappears the day before his international debut. For some reason it strikes a chord within me. It's been a while since a book has done that.

jac was here with you 11/05/2003 01:03:00 pm

My Destiny
Psalm 46 (NASB)
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change
And though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea;
Though its waters roar and foam,
Though the mountains quake at its swelling pride.

There is river whose streams make glad the city of God,
The holy dwelling places of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved;
God will help her when morning dawns.
The nations made an uproar, the kingdoms tottered;
He raised His voice, the earth melted.
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.

Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who has wrought desolations in the earth.
He makes wars to cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariots with fire.
"Cease striving and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.