beautiful disaster

Exams. Stress.

Jess and Yaozhang are heading to Washington for furthur studies. Yaozhang on Tuesday, Jess on Sunday. Whoa.

i don't know if i would like to go overseas after secondary school. the only good thing would be that it's an escape from the pressure cooker system here in Singapore. and Chinese. Especially Chinese. That's a pretty big good thing.

How do you do your best, anyway? It's something i've been asking myself. Everyone tells you, "it's all right, as long as you do your best," but i realised that, well, i probably could push myself to study harder if i wanted to. of course, i would get even more stressed. i mean, Zhen gets her dad to test her on everything which makes her panic and think she doesn't know anything at all and memorise it all again, which gets her her grades (which are considerably higher than mine). But gosh, i wouldn't want to do that. But does it count as doing your best?

I am going to get Gilly to start studying. We're staying back after church next week to study. She hasn't started yet. If i have to suffer, she's going to suffer with me.

I can't wait till exams are over.

jac was here with you 9/14/2003 08:06:00 pm

My Destiny
Psalm 46 (NASB)
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change
And though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea;
Though its waters roar and foam,
Though the mountains quake at its swelling pride.

There is river whose streams make glad the city of God,
The holy dwelling places of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved;
God will help her when morning dawns.
The nations made an uproar, the kingdoms tottered;
He raised His voice, the earth melted.
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.

Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who has wrought desolations in the earth.
He makes wars to cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariots with fire.
"Cease striving and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our stronghold.