Yupdates
Google is taking over the world! And soon it'll become one of those multinational conglomerates we all love to hate!
Wait. I think it's one already.
What's a conglomerate?
It's such a windy, sunshiney day and I'm woozy and sickly. Not really sickly. I'm getting better. But my mum tricked me into taking medicine that would make me drowsy.
I was supposed to start on my essays (again) but I'm too woozy to do it. I'm really glad I've got things sort of sorted out so there aren't that many essays left to do. I just need to figure out my career aspirations to tell FIREfly.
I don't have a career aspiration.
I want to save the world.
I think I'm going delirious.
Today I was supposed to go for a Humanz (yucks, hate that spelling) Christmas party. But I'm sick so I don't know if I'll go. I actually feel a lot better than yesterday (Mum accidentally let me go out with Dan and then realised I was sick when I was on my way home...hahaha), except for the wooziness bit. I was supposed to bring Christmas pudding but everyone's being very nice and telling me it's okay, I should stay home and rest and stuff. I'd like to go, see everyone. Wouldn't like to hear the news, like who got into Oxford (so far, 4 classmates), who got provisional scholarships, who got early-d'ed. But would like to see the people.
This week's been pretty much of a rollercoaster ride. I'm sorry about the cliche. I don't like them either. Christmas was okay. Good food, but that was about it. I've been working and falling sick and yesterday was just about the nicest day, when I got to stay at home, hog the computer (because the internet is so slow that Jon doesn't want to play on it) and then go out later with Dan for dinner. I wanted to do some shopping, look at the post-Christmas sales, but was too tired and it's not as fun window shopping with a guy.
We got my Christmas present, though, a pair of shoes from URS. It took me ages to decide if I wanted it. I'd fallen in love with it before Christmas but when I came back to try them on I decided they weren't as nice as I thought they were. Plus, wedges are a bit chunky and I'm not really a chunky kind of girl. I've always likes my shoes strappy and small, like me :)
I think my posture is being slowly but significantly marred by my 2-year-old Charles and Keith heels though. I don't think it's their fault. I realised I tend to place more weight on the outer part of my feet and less on the arch/insole part, so the weight is spread unevenly, more onto my little toes than my big toes. And because I've been wearing those heels for so long, they've been moulded to the way I walk and now perpetuate the strange way I walk. It's a bit hard to explain but I'm very sad for the shoes because I love them. I think I have to get a new pair though cos if I keep using them bad things may happen to my back. Sorry black heels! You have been very faithful.
I think God made me fall sick again this year because I've been doing so much. I'm sort of glad for that; I've slowed down significantly since earlier this month. January should be an okay month until I start on the IE Singapore internship (if they actually get back to me; they're taking ages)--apparently Kai Siong is super busy with them now. I have a whole list of people to meet up with but have been making very slow progress. I think I can only meet up with people once or twice a week because of work and my own need to be alone and do my own thing and not socialise. This is infuriating because I like checking off things I have to do quickly, but I shall suppress my urge to "itemize" people, as Christl called it. ("Do you itemize your boyfriend?" she asked me. The answer is, luckily, no.)
I came across the verse in Isaiah 40 that amused me earlier this year. Isaiah 40:22--"He sits enthroned above the circle of the earth, and its people are like grasshoppers." What a funny expression! Like grasshoppers. But it's true.
I think lately God's been reminding me how great and awesome He is. Last time I used to think He was great and awesome enough to control everything that happened to me, but now I realise that His greatness extends to His direct relationship with me. He knows everything I think about, which is sort of scary, and what He allows to happen to me has a relation to His divine purpose and plan. My perspective is being broadened, I think, to see His work in me as part of His greater work.
I don't know where that is going to bring me next year, but I think I should spend more time with Him. :)
jac was here with you
12/29/2006 02:22:00 pm
YRainy Days
The rain was splattering itself on the windscreen as we drove through the storm and I went chattering on. If I had the A'levels to deal with, I would be silently brooding now. But I don't now.
Dan was surprised I was being so, in his words, "relaxed". Because I had just found out that Yale requires me to take 3 SAT subject tests when I've only take 2, and a few days earlier I'd found out that Emory requires me to prove that I can pay my university fees before they consider my application as an international student.
Instead, I was wondering about the clouds pelting the rain down, "like a spider's web"
(--"A spider's web? Do spiderwebs do that?"
"Well, if Spider-man's shooting one at you, yeah.")
I was convinced that the clouds had planned this year-end rain-fest bonanza right from the beginning and had stored up all the water they'd seeped up over the year just for this month. Like they were peeing everything down because they had gotten so full.
Dan smiled and kept on driving.
US applications have been a headache, literally, but thankfully there are other things to remind me that my worth doesn't depend on getting into a place like Yale (though it is lovely) or getting a scholarship. I've just sent emails to Yale and Emory asking for clarification and pleading for an exception to be made (doesn't hurt to try), and I'm going to leave it at that for today.
I was somewhere today, at some part of today, listening to the rain, when I remembered Justin's message one cold, dark day in Hwa Chong: "the rain brings blessings from God," and my headache cleared.
God's gonna take me wherever He wants me to go.
And if I stay in Singapore at least I won't grow fat! :)
jac was here with you
12/19/2006 11:09:00 pm
YMmm...
Also:
jac was here with you
12/11/2006 10:20:00 pm
YooOoOo...
This site + seeing Joel getting alternately fascinated and flustered by a cat last night makes me want to have babies.
Until I remember I'm eighteen years old and shrink from even the thought of pain. Haha. So let's KIV that.
I was supposed to be working on my uni applications but I did that yesterday and I'm really sleepy from the bad night's sleep so I went on mr brown's site, got to mr miyagi site and wandered around until I hit the site above, which I have been browsing for the whole afternoon. It's so cute :)
jac was here with you
12/03/2006 04:37:00 pm