YIndulge me.
Three months to the end?
It's exciting, thinking of what I'm going to do in the next phase of my life. Get to start all over again and I don't know why, that always appeals to me. Maybe because I make too many mistakes if I'm stuck in the same place for too long.
Who knows? Maybe my university life will turn out as unsatisfying as JC was (I'm hoping not). I remember I felt the same sort of anticipation in the months before I graduated from MG. But history doesn't always repeat itself, and I should remind myself of that more often.
In the meantime, there are three months left to go, two sets of exams to prepare for, mountains of notes to plough through and countless emotional cycles to experience. If you took a step back from the incredible amount of work we've been doing you would realise it's just that, incredible, and impossible, but like Ella told me a few weeks ago on a very stressed-out morning, everyone has to tackle this impossible task every year, and somehow they get through it--some even do well--so we will be able to as well.
If you take another step back and look at it from above, you realise that all these little things are just like playing house, and your life and its problems suddenly seem like trifles, far away, little plasticky doll-like things, because the only thing that matters isn't really 4 As and CVs and colleges and exams and prelims.
jac was here with you
8/16/2006 04:11:00 pm