YHappy Birthday!
Thank you for the wonderful birthday, everyone :) I'm really blessed to have friends like you guys.
Thank you, Gilly, Ben, Zhen Yang, Yoon Nee, Justin, etc for the song.
Thank you, Michelle, Hannah and Deanne for Friday's surprise.
Thank you, Clare, Dan, Justin, Chang and Yado for Saturday's cake.
Thank you, Adora, Zhen, Nic, Kim and Tash for Sunday's lunch.
Thank you, everyone who ate all the cake :) Thank you sooo much!
jac was here with you
2/23/2004 07:22:00 pm
YLooking On The Bright Side...
One good thing about Wednesdays: chocolate rainbow-sprinkled doughnuts.
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YTuesdays With Chem
You know February just flew by? Like, wasn't it January just a few weeks ago? And then this weekend will be the last February weekend, won't it? And...wow.
I don't really want time to pass. I think it would be really nice if time just stopped for a while and I could just sort of rest. Had an internal affairs meeting today and the sec 2s (I keep calling them sec 1s...they're so small) were going on about how the March holidays are in, what, 20 days' time, and they were looking forward to it soooo much...I don't really want March holidays to come.
Today was a horrible day, and chem lab was like the cherry on a fever-medicine-flavoured sundae (i hate cherries, by the way). Totally forgot how to titrate, and in my sleepy stupor I titrated sodium hydroxide with sodium hydroxide so the stupid screened methyl orange didn't turn grey-green at all and I wasted about 7 minutes titrating, looking at the green solution like an idiot. I guess it was sort of funny, just like the time when I accidentally pipetted the acid instead of the alkali and the phenolphthalein turned pink instead. But at that time it wasn't really funny.
One thing I am grateful for is the fact that today is the only day of the week I get home before 5. Another person I'm grateful for is Zhen, who so patiently listens to all my complaints (even if she doesn't understand half of what i'm saying due to the lack of sleep). It's so funny, you know. Yesterday was so nice and happy and I thought there was nothing in the world that could get me down and then today--ugh. Didn't even want to get out of bed.
It's going to rain, I think. That's a good sign. I like rain :). I think I just need a good sleep to clear my head. There really isn't anything to worry about, anyway. I mean, it's not really my problem, all these things. Right?
Oh, my gosh. And tomorrow's Wednesday. I hate Wednesdays. Let's just all drown Jac in a bucket of sorrow right now so she won't have to face Wednesdays ever again. Ahhhh!
jac was here with you
2/17/2004 06:06:00 pm
YThank You
I don't really know what to say.
I've gradually come to realise that sometimes the reason why I can't worship God isn't because He doesn't want to grace me with His presence. It's more because I don't let Him in. In my stubbornness and pride I cling on to the burdens that weigh me down. I refuse to let Him fill the God-shaped hole in my heart and I think about it and realise I'm just so, so stupid.
Like today. I refused to give up thoughts that bothered me, refused to surrender my sins to Him. Refused to heed the soft prompting in my heart to do what was right, to obey my parents.
Today I got home depressed about everything. I knew I needed God but I was just too lazy to get up and pray or read His Word. I was just so tired. So I procrastinated. But I eventually got down to doing it and you know what, as I read about Esther and how God answers prayer and how much He cares this warmth started to flow into my heart and I realised just how blessed I am. He's provided so much and as every day passes I gain a better understanding of His grace.
Thank You for the weekend. Thank You for letting me survive. Thank You for providing at my every point of need! Haha...Fridays are always nice. Shirin and I love Fridays because it means we've survived one week and the weekend's just around the corner. Thank You for blessing me with sooo much.
Friday was nice, even though I was in a horrible mood for the first part of the day. It was nice getting all those flowers and chocolates from people. It's nice to know that people care about you, I suppose. Even those whom you didn't keep in contact with but still thought of you anyway, and those who have been with you and know all about you and still love you for the silly person you are.
(Tina and the gang! You guys are the coolest class comm. around! Putting pink cellophane paper on the lights and paper hearts on the OHP and buying and writing all that stuff for each and every one of us--WOW!)
jac was here with you
2/15/2004 06:16:00 pm
YLet My Words Be Few
This song has been echoing in my head the whole weekend, ever since I heard Justin sing it on Friday. It was so vaguely familiar; I must have heard it before, but I couldn't remember, and it was just the chorus that I remembered. We sang it today during prayer meeting and there are just a few lines, but they mean so much to me. I'm not even sure if the words are correct but it's the words of the second verse that have a special meaning to me:
The sweetest of all love songs
I long to bring to You
So I'll let my words be few.
Jesus, I am so in love with You.
And it goes on, and the rest of the song, while so simple and short, is just lingering in my mind as I sing it over and over again. The whole weekend was just full of praise. First cell, then Fusion, then today's worship, and despite some problems I just have to thank God for blessing me with so much. Words can't express how grateful I feel towards Him. Just praising Him over and over again because He's in control of everything! No matter how messed up everything seems, He holds everything in the palm of His hand. Wow!
And, and...I want to give Him the sweetest of all love songs by making my whole life pleasing to Him. So hard and yet so simple. Like Gilly says, surrendering is hard but necessary. Trusting Him, listening to Him, all these things take so much time and effort but I know that the rewards make up for it all. I'm scared He'll break me. But...
Jesus, I am so in love with You.
jac was here with you
2/01/2004 09:08:00 pm